Wow – if the question mark wasn’t there all you would see is a blank space. You would never know that on this day I ran 5.5 miles in the Snowbird DirtyBird mud run. You would never know my pace, how many calories I burned, my heart rate or even my cadence. You would never know my total mileage for that week, that month, and even this year – because it would be missing a whopping 5.5 miles.
And that was bugging me a bit.
Yes, I know that this is one of the dangers of using too many tools when you run. But I love those numbers as they help me watch my slow increase in miles each week, my increase in my pace and help me adjust my eating (still clean and healthy) on more leaner or more intense calorie-burning days.
And its probably because I love those numbers so much that I didn’t want to take my Polar M400 watch out to a mud run – knowing of the possibility of being without those numbers for a couple of weeks if I had to wait for a replacement to be sent to me.
But then it occurs to me…
This blank space is a gentle reminder that I’ve let my tools start to control me – and my running – a bit too much. As I meditate upon this a bit more, the tension of that space starts to melt away into a sense of peace that I can have that space. For it was on that day that I had the time of my life enjoying an amazing mud run and obstacle course. Am I honestly going to take away from that just because it doesn’t show up in my running log?
I’m not saying (at least at this point) that I’m giving up my tools but I am thinking it might be good to go out occasionally without them every once in a while and just remember why I run.
And when I do I’ll remember back to this post, slowly breathe out any remaining tension, any residual stress and remind myself of that reason:
I run because I love it.
Running for Life…